When an Atheist/human prays for life/lives

I'll say this anyway, God Bless America. Whether or not there's God, I'll find out the way I camr into this word, kicking and screaming. Religion is false but whether by mistake, corrupt sectors or whether a sham/blackhat social engineering thing in the first place, it has more holes than a screen door. It should be outlawed and done away with. Quit not only nagging God, have faith and trust in not just him but yourselves, and quit saying "are we dead yet? Are we dead yet?" What happened to the tree of life or erternal life or that castle built on the rock. The emporer's new clothes concept applies to castles too. Firm, steadfast, perfection are not requirements to live or let live. We're breathing right? Do we have to deserve to be happy when that makes do more good works? That's like saying you don't deserve to become good unless you become good. I guess that's the eternal round eh? We are made in a God's image, we are told, and we're destined to be happy so to "be ye perfect" won't happen when we blaspheme God/life by implying with our actions that God doesn't deserve to be happy, is evil, a piece of crap to walk all over cuz it will acclimate/accustom your body/brain/logic/spirit to believing and spreading lies, murder and mayhem and becoming the better mouse trap, the prison, criminal, crazy, the doctor and shrink and you wonder why the bible is taken seriously and perhaps was the number #1 best seller rather than going out and living? Your body acclimates to weather, exercise, being sedentary, social norms, abuse or love (ok usually) so you do get accustomed or desensitized to lies, rape, murder, death, perversion, stealing, coveting etc., and why? You can have so much more and be so much more simply by being human. Animals and nature are awe inspiring. I made a Starbucks card of all things that said "Look up at the sky, stars dream of you" and it showed a little me on the beach. Even if I am/was the best at what I do, so what? We're human and even in the worst of times, THE dark ages, there's so much more than my limits and within mine so much to go around. I'm not even the tip of an iceberg, I'm not even a grain of sand. I'm nothing and I knew this for so long before seeing photos of space or the ocean. I don't need to be anything, I need to be. I am. And I need you and others like me. I'm not picky. I sleep with cats, dogs, lizards, snakes when I can (next to lol) and that's long after I graduated high school. Hell, I've slept with plants and bugs and not just when camping. I'm not desperate. My mouth alone takes care of that as my shyness and intuition and hesitation and so much more. I don't need baggage to be this awkward. That's how I got the baggage. I've never felt so mortal as when I was a child. I was scared to death into what I have now in spite of being able and on my way to being as intelligent and I'd be way more intelligent, healthy and happy and successful/helpful without all that hurt. I had the misfortune of learning to box by being the punching bag. If I can pull myself up by my bootstraps then there's hope for you. Don't expect gratitude, just accomplishment and it's all for you and if you help others it increases yours and their chances. You can't help others unless you're in the shape/circumstance to do so. Invest in yourself, don't be short term or a one hit wonder in your survival career or search for happiness and prosperity. Look at life, now and in the past. There's more good than bad and perfection only makes you miss out on the beauty and happiness that's already there. Who needs a perfect batting average when we are explorers, adventurers, and time travelers with the throttle and gear stuck in a neck breaking forward. Time waits for no person but hesitation and fear make you lose your time and your life. I've lost so much I do despair when I think of others going through the same. ThTs instinct and partial self preservation. Some days it may be nurturing and others trying to keep my head above water or both usually, varying degrees.