Time for fun, time for life

I hope nobody thinks I'm all business or constantly sad or prudish. I'd love to get laid or have a gf that's got a body for sin. Just feeling down and was being too focused on work but need to have fun and get some action or cuddle with a gal or even a strip club is better than crying all damn day cuz seeing the world go to hell hurts. The more self aware I become the more I realize people are suffering, and some as bad or much worse than me. That or my paternal instincts just kicked in cuz I feel like I haven't done enough. I've worked hard all my life only to realize I did it all wrong and I feel I wasted my life away. I want to make up for not just lost time but lost life and opportunity, good opportunity. I'm not going to stomp on on bruised backs.