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You know, I'm just as human/vulnerable as the rest of you. Saying I'm nice/helpful (trying to survive) because I had no choice (a bit of opportunistic mixed with unfortunate) when having the same emotions as any of you and when others break down completely, become bitter, give up hope, do the if you can't beat em, join em thing, and considering my track record to boot, wouldn't you say I single-mindedly and stubbornly want to survive? At the same time I'm trying to rewire my brain to be more realistic during entropy to not be prideful, too confrontationally defensive, heal trauma, anger and avoid/heal any hate that starts/tries to spring up, and come up with thinking that seems very different than the norm, almost like accelerated evolution, and bring as many potential allies/gf's etc., with me into the next moment of being alive, prosperous and healthy? Cuz I know I'm not superman or a celebrity or king. I don't do magic or levitate. I gotta network and push my mind, heart, soul, body and my limits. I never got this far this fast with a younger, healthier body and mind. This is sheer will and spirit though my genetics help alot, I didn't get bitten by a radioactive spider.