Welcome to the Jungle Baby

First off I'll say that my douche neighbors, church etc etc are a bunch of psycho and vengeful blood oath freaks, and with the internet, and even real life being impossible to gauge sometimes when anyone can take acting classes, do special FX like in the movie to not just fight crime but commit it, and deceive people, and there's video editing, real time or not, and yes, speech synthesis and it sounds real too, and then there's that technology where you can manipulate people by manipulating their or your own environment and then psychology to use psychology on people even further and then medical science to either make them too strong or too weak or repeatedly change them and so much more, is it any wonder I went bat shit crazy for a little while? I'm sorry for hurting those that cared for me. I'm wondering and hoping and believing that's Nicki. Even if Nicki as dicking with me a bit, I'd forgive her even if she didn't want a relationship and I think at this point, that won't happen. Friends or at least forgiveness would make me happy.

And does it matter if I know everything or even most or enough of what's going on to live? So you're saying you won't let me live because I don't know enough to live? Something changed before you arrived because I was just about to keep on living. I wanna live, so who gives a shit about mormons or christians first off, and I'm at a point where no truth will turn back time and if I have little life left for whatever reason, I'm going to fucking enjoy it.

My douche neighbors across the street told me that “my own CIA tactics were being used against me” when I tweeted about how food and technology could be used to bring a person down. I was tweeting on denebola at the time, and Nicki also kept saying in video chat “not to brag” and “but you're mormon!” Yeah, wonder if Skype or MSN chat has records of that. Well, CIA in Grill Sergeants is “Culinary Institute of America.” Food can even be counterfeited, since you can buy shrinkwrap machines online, so imagine that since an individual can do that, like my friend Ward Minson, who that sold used software as new. Well, this tech/food and combination of a toxic or overindulgent environment both emotionally and intellectually and spiritually, let's throw that in there and for you “mentalists” how about psychologically and mentally odd, can has been used to make us go crazy, mouth off, not say anything or enough, kill others, kill ourselves, rape others, get raped, assault others, get assaulted, do stupid stunts or procreate with people we would never give the time of day to, or had that happen to us, and make kids that are, how shall we put it, worthless to pass on further progeny. That's not just a “stab” at gays but people who are either stupid, are born with birth defects that, without technology, would be completely unable to take care of themselves or others, let alone kids, or are born with psychotic or murderous tendencies or feel the need to forcably insert their penis into anything that can't kill or hurt them badly enough in self defense. Ever since my job as Security Assistant at Hill Air Force Base, I've been getting food poisoning way more frequently. Actually, ever since then, I'd consider it an odd but good day if I DIDN'T get food poisoning. And not just at home but just about anywhere I went, that family (and of course neighbors are going to know via the grapevine and their friends or whatever. I didn't always tweet this you know. That was so “help would arrive.”) Oh and when I noticed the police and paramedics and others sometimes behaved, well, let's say a bit “psycho” and then after I experienced some inner-conflict, I learned to actually hack my mind/brain from within, plus I had some inner strength, since, hell, I've lived in hell since I was a kid, it was just another day of “the school of hard knocks is in session.” You see, if the screening process was THAT bad for police and others, from day one you'd be bent over, robbed, extorted, beaten, and they'd also hurt your feelings, make fun of you, and trip you in the halls of your home, church, school and when you voted they'd shoot at your feet like in cowboy movies and make you dance. Then they'd hang you. And since, even under these circumstances, “corruption” which is like corrupted sectors on a disk, still happens infrequently, especially when you take into account the ratio of biological vulnerabilities and toxic environment, it's a fucking miracle that the USA hasn't gone to hell in a hand basket already. Plus, if you use microwaves, or light wavelengths, or sound, both that you can hear or can't, heat and not just infrared but other temperatures or lack of it (cold), ultraviolet (which is absorbed through the skin), and even EMF, and other things noticable or not, can be used in combination with not just food but gases, noble or not, to totally not just make you go crazy at various levels, but go on a rampage, such as Columbine, Trolley Square etc. I'm not saying those were caused by that but the results could indeed, turn out that way in extreme cases. OH and Marines and Navy Seals could go nazi. Even things dealing with perception like love, lack of it, fear, harassment, spiritual growth or lack of it, frequently changing and not just toxic, emotional and intellectual environments, pride or lack of it, self esteem, and abuse or overindulgeance of love, sex, religion. Well, that's basically why the mormons were founded when it comes to Latinos and Blacks. Oh and like the government, the mormons network so they have many branches that are “unrelated” that do the “work of the lord.” Kind of like that comic or “graphic novel” where the Catholic Priest had skaters and street kids that fought crime and demons or something. Oh, and since domestic terrorists just suddenly popped up when Obama was elected? Oh come on, that isn't organized overnight, unless it had help from religion, or it was a combination, since “laying the foundation of god's work” is also a mormon thing. Ahem, Glenn Beck and Palin being very insulting to Blacks and Latinos and anything that's gone through civil rights issues by giving a speech at Abe Lincolns memorial and talking shit about our first Black President. How contradictory, schizo and insulting is that? In fact, that's a downright neo-nazi thing to do. You know, the holocaust brewers. The fucktards that said, here, have a nice cup of die in a giant kiln. Oh, and I was going to join the military after I saw a TV special in California where a Latino soldier comes home to a birthday party or family private party, while on leave, and is murdered by gang members. I told myself, that shit is not going to happen on my watch. I'm going to royally fuck some people up. From now on, when it comes to ANY fucktard, it's Welcome to the Jungle Baby. Oh yeah and this happens right after I tell of that ex, Nicki, and suddenly I'm being even more harassed by skinheads and neighbors? And I ate some really really noxious stuff? Oh and when even Latinos, “gangstas” help me in jail and when I'm in Vegas, Portland and Salt Lake City? Remember the Rocketeer? Yeah, it doesn't take rocket science to figure out they don't all hate you that much. In fact, they seem to downright like/love you. I do remember Nicki saying right off that she was going to prove I was some rapist and to keep me away from a certain redhead Jen, because I was basically bad news for her. I remember when my denebola twitter was private, and right after I made it public, then the shit started hitting the fan even more because, well, people saw my potential and not just for science or work, but for love and passing that “seed” along. I also have social potential and since I warned Jen about the mormons and I am not a douche towards women, not usually, that takes, well, more than throwing the kitchen sink and then some at me, and Nicki, your mistake was saying you'd wait for me with a meal all prepared and the house cleaned, etc. I hate patriarchy. Even if I work hard, if I don't collapse after walking in the door, I am going to do my part in a partnership and help around the house, including cooking meals. Nice try. Oh and I remember being followed around by mormons, trying to “claim” Jen for themselves, at least verbablly, and telling me to stay very very far away from her, and threatening me because “you Mexicans are rapists and murderers.” Oh and Nicki, calling me Homie all the time? Oh right, that's not odd for a “civilized” British person. Whatever. And since at first you said you hated Muslims and “niggers” and since Jews are just the same, and you'd say “ich libe dieche” and seemed quite proud of those German roots and told me “But you're a God.” It finally all came together after I've been through the nine levels of hell and back. Oh wait, that's a Chinese thing I do believe. Didn't you say you loved “Chinese?” And not just the food. And I just wanna add for all you kookoo conspiracists, I am not going to date anyone right now. I'm going to school and if I went back to California, it's because my high school friends have been inviting me to go back and visit, even before I added them on facebook. I've got lots of my old high school and childhood friends on there asking me to go back and other friends too. I love California. I hate Utah. I hate Idaho. Portland is not bad, and Vegas was pretty cool too, but especially North Ogden and amongst a bunch of moron family and neighbors, no fucking thank you. And it's not like I can't be friends with whomever I please. And nice try, morons, in telling me that "the best marriages start with friendship." Like you fucktards can tell the future other than a self-fulfilling prophecy. For all you know, I got to some nudie bar and meet the woman of my dreams after the condom breaks, or I get kidnapped while traveling, and then fall in love and make some contributions to the world through the ones that were so naughty and whatnot. Hey, I see good in just about everyone. I've seen gangstas behave more rationally than mormons and you don't think that's universal? Give me a break. And yes, some neo-nazis could also be rational and some were, but thanks to neighbors like the punks across the street, they want that changed at this time and why? Opportunity knocks. What's going on right now? Everyone hates the Feds, there's domestic terrorists about like no other time, and I worked as security assistant at a military base and pretty much the world has seen my military identification that I've posted online, publicly, more than once. Oh, and you've still got my mother after me like a damned pit bull, though she pretty much does that naturally. Oh and I don't like Pitbull's Reggaeton as much as I like Winsin y Yandel, but thanks for those links Nicki. And my brother is pissed off that I'm writing this online and kissing my mother's ass and saying he's going to revoke my computer privileges? Oh gee, who's da man now huh? I suppose you always wanted to be on top, always wanted to be the eldest and taken more seriously and seen as the "he's the protector of the family" after I socked your arm real hard for making my sister cry, freak out and demand an apology and since I've been protector of her against David too, whom she stabbed in the head with a fork and almost threw over the stairs in Oroville, yeah, she had him nearly hanging over the railing, and he's the one that locked her in the utility room when she punched through the window with her fist, freaking out and screaming to be let back in. I wonder why that would be? Oh and since I not only saved your lives but also disciplined you and not just in her defense, but I stuffed my brother Dave in the closet and other things, and when you left for basic, you tried to take me down because you had been working out, and ended up with your arm behind your back and pinned when I used jujitsu. Oh and let me think, Rudyard Johansen did his best to impede further training in Genbukan, as did my father and others, including a North Ogden Police officer that was angry that I had made a black friend at Sears, the store, and since I was chatting with him that night on that Macintosh computer they aren't allowed to sell anymore because they kept telling people that Compaqs or Packard Bells were more secure, he came and arrested me after saying something like "we hear you've been talking (consorting) with niggers." Well, two officers were there but one took me to McKay-Dee and when I got there, and didn't want to voluntary commit myself, he slams his fists on the table, and made it very very clear there was going to be brutality, like there was before and also against my mother, and there's a north ogden officer that also threatened my mother recently and said "I'll be watching you" and this voting for Obama must have really pissed them off, well, fuck you too. It's my right and if you have a problem with it, you and I and the Secret Service ARE going to have a little talk. Oh and I hope that police SUV that's often parked next door, at the house of the old lady that disappeared is guarding my house and not something else. Oh and about letting my father go when he'd broken his restraining order, who's the idiot who thought that up? And yeah, it's the Secret Service's job to go after ID theft and forgery but whose the fucktard FBI agent that my mother says threatened to throw her ass in jail too if she didn't stop writing congress? Hmmm? I want names and to talk to superiors. He could have had the decency and honest to just tell her, Ma'am that is the job of the secret service now. Oh but yeah, the FBI has spied on the USA for Russia about three times now huh. I doubt the Secret Service, NSA or CIA have done that badly. Oh yeah, don't the FBI recruit from the mormons quite often? I hear they're desperate for translators and those familiar with customs of other countries, like moron missionaries. WTF is wrong with you idiots that you can't do your job right? I have multiple TBIs, am unarmed as far as bullets, and you're either too negligent, corrupt or too big of pussies to stand up for what's right, and racist to boot? Wow, now that really takes the cake. And don't be whiney, manipulative babies. If you didn't fuck up, then I'm not talking to you, AM I? And if you fagmos are trying to set me up with little girls on the internet, since I'm finding out that every college age looking chick seems to really be 16 or 17 or something like that, and they have the rack to match a FHM or Maxim girl, well, I'm gonna kick someone in the nuts. Because, gee, wouldn't it just be Ironic that Joe, this really awesome guy that "seems" to have all these answers is really just a hypocrite like he says these mormons/morons are. Fat chance. Oh wait, you already tried that. His name is Ken, and there's others too. Troy Rendon and some white dudes etc etc etc.