Anti-govs and anti-cops

It seems there's anti-government and anti-cop types that don't like the fact I worked as security assistant at Hill AFB and are quite the social engineers to boot. I'm still on top but they're prowling about. They don't always act themselves and I've seen ones I suspect of pretending to be gay or with voice imitating blacks and Latinos in speech manner thinking I'd not look and just twitter that some minority was threatening me. They're responsible for a bit of my brain damage too. Divide and conquer is their aim. I'm wishing I'd have kept that job. My boss, John Young was a great guy that tried to break me outta my shell and get me exercising and away from the computer especially when it comes to socializing. I'm not going to let that go to waste. Others at Hill too. I'm thankful I had people like them backing me up at work. If it weren't for shitty meds making me a bit irrational I'd have accepted that job permanently. I'd have to keep my CAC card and me safe but I could have done it with some help from law enforcement and military. I'm still that same person and people know that and pick on me accordingly. I won't give in so easily now as I'm stronger now. The USA is just fine. The "patriots" and #Iamthemob types set their sites on me even before my first job. They were on me like white on rice since I could walk and may include my own father. As a minority that's a half breed I'm a target by hate groups that see me as a symbol of interracial marriage and mating and that includes some Mormons and in my neighborhood to boot. I'm sure that some have connections in Mexico even. I won't let my guard down even there. They not only want to stop me from mating with a white woman but want to prevent me from succeeding in a career, friends, community and more. They don't even want me to vote for someone I prefer especially after I voted for Obama and he got elected. I'm going to vote for Obama again to teach them a lesson. Oh and I've noticed they hate Latin music of which I have a decent collection on my iPod touch. And I'm aware now that gays are racist too sometimes and it just fairly recently clicked even though I was experiencing it firsthand for years. Utah has some racist laws too and we've leaders here that worked under Nixon who turns out to be a racist willing to help abort interracial babies. I'm in danger every day even where I live from rednecks and other extremists. I find it hard to trust any white civilian in this state mostly since I keep running into extreme types. You know I'm going to get dual citizenship with Mexico just to show them I'll do what I want. And I'm buying more Latin music and books and more. I'll also support Latinos in my community and in the country and in Mexico and Latin America and the world. I've already been supporting uncle Sam. ha!

Coffee and the nature of meds

I've discovered that sun and chocolate covered expresso beans mix well with me. Maybe it's true about us Latinos needing sun or we get "schizo." It sure helps my happiness when I'm in the sun or had sun. I truly get the winter blues. No sun, no fun, and no caffeine with my TBI make me sarcastic. Granted I can get pretty accurate and think "outside the box" but at what cost? Perhaps some change I outline is too much too soon and I don't want to leave anyone behind socially or economically. Not only should people succeed they should be happy doing it. Paag and SDS serve a purpose. They aren't perfect programs but this country is also a work in progress as is humanity. Perhaps criticism isn't needed but blueprints. The intent when saying what needs to be fixed should technically be for the benefit of those doing it wrong as well as those needing it done right. We're all human and in need and cooperation is the key to happiness as well as survival. So, I'm siding with everyone. We're all sentient beings here after all and even the not so sentient ones have feelings and maybe are even more sensitive due to lack of faculties. Remember that bacteria have no brain or central nervous system but can plan ahead three steps in a colony so what of other living creatures? Best wishes.

Weber Human

You know they're making me stronger and building connections in my brain that increase my survival instincts. Even if they mean harm it's having the opposite effect. I'll just go with the flow and Utah and Ogden are a great place. Just photographed some of the scene of an accident and saw a policeman there helping the paramedics. Cops wear multiple hats and are often the first on the scene because they're patrolling. I should have gotten better photos of the rescuers and the accident itself but I'm shy. I admit it. I'm glad I live in such a place and I see why America wants to spread democracy. It's doing the world a favor. It's showing compassion. It's lending a helping hand. In any way I can I'll help the USA and the world. Best wishes to all.

Being sick aka mentally ill

Shrinks don't seem to want to actually treat or cure the physical aspect to maladies. Instead they pin it on the patient by calling it a mental illness and giving them pills. Especially with what we know today, it's like treating a broken leg with aspirin and talk. Yup, shrinks will talk your ear off or try to get you to misdiagnose yourself by what you say and their "standard" medical procedures. Even with a PhD, most of what you learn is in the field. These shrinks don't seem to learn much at weber human nor are their minds flexible enough to accurately or beneficially work with me. I've finally realized something. They either just don't like me or can't maturely deal with a TBI survivor. I'm pretty sure they're on a crusade since I'm an atheist(not anymore). I've oft been told, even by nice people there to obey my parents and go to church. The nice ones also added I could meet someone female for possible relationships or friendship. The mean ones were condescending and authoritarian. Was I supposed to be cured by magical Jesus if I went to church? That's bullshit. And the timing was right with ole Rob Hunter. Online I stated my dissatisfaction with being lds and my parent's authority regarding religion. I found out PAAG owns a lot of property that they use for group homes. They look like a little village. I've been there. I seem to also be another way of making money. So much for treating me with dignity when if it wasn't for their bullshit, I'd have a $40k a year job or even be earning more. That's religion and/or shrinks. Some lds have tried to protect me in the past but my belief in atheism sort of soured that a bit. Religious people target atheists like the police target crime. It's not just gay people who are deemed sick for being sinners. It's atheists. It's the war without looking like a war per art of war. It's an abuse of power and trust and completely unethical. They're using their positions as counselors as Christian soldiers and/or racist ideals. If they're only out to make money that's just as bad but it's too personal to be that unless they're greedy to a point of being sick in the head. I'm pretty sure they can't wait until my mom dies to make a move to stuff me in a group home and basically be an authority over me and have power over me and further impede my progress. Since Rob Hunter went to my mom to try and get her to put me in a group home without my say or permission, and when I was doing fine in school and work, well, that's a breech of trust and ethics. They tried it again recently and it still didn't work. That must really chap their asses. I'm going to find work so I can get someone private that has respect and my actual well being in mind. I'll even get a certified online counselor of I have to. Skype works wonders. I'm not going to be trapped by asshats.