My viewpoint on religion

Much of the point of Atheism or Science or Freedom of Religion (meaning a right to choose) is the right to live your own life, question, and learn as per intelligence not just "faith." Faith without evidence means believing a lie. Period. Faith can be used in certain contexts like "I have faith my friend/family/spouse won't let me down." That's different than "I have faith in a religion/God that no one can prove exists, and I preach it to others/Ram it down their throats in spite of atrocities committed in his name and in the name of religion." Even if evolution is wrong, it's scientific method. Science is trial and error. How long did it take to actually figure out and write down accurately how gravity works? Same thing. Just because before then nobody had a clue does that mean science is always wrong and should be banned/impeded? Where do you think the Internet came from? That's science not some Priest/Rabbi/Mormon/Anyone praying it into existence. Even if I'm wrong about a god, if he's so cruel and sadistic and dishonest to believe I deserve hell for not being able to figure out that down here while I'm busy trying to survive no less enjoy what little life is given me, then his heaven is creepy. I see him as the one with the pitch fork and spitting flames or whatever. The issue I have with religion and religious people is they claim to speak for him. I know they teach you to say that until you regurgitate it without thinking twice, I was born and raised mormon, they teach some weird shit and historically aren't even true christians. At least the catholics can trace that via archaeology. Anyway, if god thought it was important he'd tell me himself. I'm not mocking either, but if he knows our very thoughts and hearts second by second then why doesn't he come down to lend me a hand? It's not that'd I'd question a supreme being. Obviously I have enough of a grasp on reality that I don't try to stop a moving bus with my hand as it hurdles down the road at 50mph. I do question people however. I know people all too well and a lot of the time they are completely full of it, including professionals in many fields, not just science. Skepticism also means questioning that science book and not just assuming it's correct considering we used to get doctors touting the benefits of cocaine for everything from the common cold to low energy for housewives and even kids. I see people all around me saying this and that.... so based on that alone why doesn't god rescue me? If my "soul" is in peril with so many religions asking for my attention you'd think he'd care if I suffer for an eternity based on a decision on who I run to for protection. That's what it amounts to. Safety in numbers but at the same time I have a conscience even without people teaching ethics. Call it survival or call it compassion it's many things, not just for others but I know if I don't surround myself with people who are also compassionate and honest then I'm dead too when the crap hits the fan, and I don't want to do that to someone either. I could quite easily, it's so easy these days to screw someone over in the name of religion or politics or anything really. Religion tries to impede science and I don't know how that got started since Galileo is supposed to be recognized by the Catholic church as the guy who spelled it out basically. At least on Religulus the Catholic astronomer led me to believe so. For example, mormons don't believe in Evolution only based on faith. They also add the little side note that if Evolution is wrong, then all science is wrong and only "wisdom of man while god's wisdom is eternally truthful." Yeah, that's what Jim Jones said. Science is always wrong sometimes as is man and religion because life is triall and error. If it weren't, even the bible would be pointless. If we don't learn by trial and error then why pray or repent? Why this "test" to see if we're good or bad? Obviously trial and error is how we learn since we're not born knowing everything. Even the Pope, no offense, doesn't know everything. I'm sure he prays and stuff so he must believe that as well. I have to say I'm pretty passionate about this having suffered much abuse in the name of religion and the majority of it from mormons but even a few of their baptist friends too. I'm not sure why, I was a gifted kid in grade school and jr high and that didn't set well with people since I'm half mexican and I am a mix of races people tend to hate from Spaniard to British to French and Danish to name the ones I know about. I was a science geek from the get go, and honestly was not able to realize my dream to be a marine biologist because of religious abuse. I seem to fail at everything else but science, and the ocean is one thing I'd like to see before I pass on from who knows what. These days you never know when you'll go. Besides, I'd actually like to live forever if Ray Kurzweil is even remotely right but that's another story. I'm going off the subject as usual. You know even prayer in school doesn't bother me, I want no decision making in other's lives, I'm busy with my own on top of I want others to stay out of mine. I would be bothered if they stood on a chair and yelled out with outstretched arms but if they bow their heads or say it softly, hey, that's none of my business. It's a scary world, people turn to what they need sometimes but the thing that bothers me is organized religion, the big tank that towers down and tries to push that on me. Individuals are usually ok, but get a group of people and they get bolder and do more harm. I admit I have no idea if there's a god but I do admit I fear death not because I'm some sinner but because my life here was not good, and I had hopes for a life that was happy and fun and safe. That and there are people I care about and I'll never see them again if I die and there's nothing or if there's some weird hell thing how is that decided? Since things don't make sense here will they if there's an afterlife? God doesn't bother setting things straight if he exists so either way I think I'd be toast as they say. Even if I were to go to some "heaven" what if my friends don't based on some technicality? You know with string theory talking about multiple dimensions and alternate realities it makes me wonder what the hell is going on and it concerns me not just for my welfare but for others and not just for selfless reasons. Everyone needs backup, everyone needs safety in numbers.