Fresh Air

I have to say I find the air in my house suffocating, if not noxious. I could go way out there and say some gases have metals, or metal like properties, or even toxic but truthfully whatever the properties, the effects both in sensory and health are enough to say being indoors a lot like this is not doing me well, and my family knows this and takes advantage of it. It doesn't matter if they would say get out more in the past because that always changes. It'd then be you're always out and never home or you shouldn't just spend time with friends, you should spend time with family/church. There's always some B.S. excuse and it was meant to keep me home. There is what appears to be a mold growing in my room, on the floor and also in the window, but of course my mother does not care in the least bit. I'm no expert and it can even be an allergy combined with things like stress, emotional abuse and the quality of the food in my home, most of which is from Deseret (mormon crap food for welfare). Plenty of combinations of this environment to make me sick, the stress and abuse alone being sufficient to cause my poor health, and "poor mood" which is another stupid catch phrase for "he's unhappy about being abused, let's give him shit about it." That's what it boils down to even if the individual is only in the habit of that phrase and didn't mean that by it. It's still like saying rule of thumb to a woman that knows the origin of that saying. Even if not meant in a bad away and the man is truly a man that treats women with respect and respects them, that's a rather upsetting thing to hear. I don't go out as much since people threaten and harass me. I hate them as much as they hate me at this point. They're scumbags especially mormons. My mother helps with that, harassing me at home, getting her friends to harass me out and about, and so do neighbors. I don't know if they were serious about going out with some of their daughters, and I don't care. Not all of them likes me that way, thank goodness. Some though were offended that I didn't want to attend singles wards, nor took interest in their shitty religion. Rejecting their religion alone is enough to set off a mormon, and even if not serious about going out with their daughters or finding you a mate, the mere rejection must be quite an insult to people who think you should bow down to them "when in their own state." These morons are all about ritual, ceremony and status which is why they have temples and priesthoods and callings etc. They're pompous asses. At least many other institutions have reason for ceremony, such as the military. Even though war is sometimes wrong I have to say in cases of the USA I don't think it's that wrong that often, other than maybe with the slaughter of Native Americans. Too bad the extermination order by Governor Boggs was not carried out, or I'd not be in this fine mess. I say that since I've gotten a lot of shit for reporting them to http://www.mormonabuse.com and it's not just from family but from other mormons. They are all complete shit. It's plain and simple. When they help one group they're also bending over another, whether literally or in other ways. They'll mistreat you to the point you do rebel and if you drink or say anything " bad about their church" they use it as an excuse. Whether or not they truly believe in their church might be up for grabs but they are opportunistic, creepy and bullies. They'll use your own family against you and any other resources not limited to church but in Utah things like college counselor's, Weber Human Services, and get people to pretend to be your friend, or trick or manipulate you into breaking up with friends, girlfriends, colleagues etc., since divide and conquer seems to be one tactic they use. They are both brutal and dishonest and also fanatical when it suits them or simply because they are. I disown all of my family since they're all complete shit, especially my own mother. She's the worst one out of my whole entire family. Next is my father, and all my siblings. They're pretty much equal in their creepiness. Of course next and also equal to all of them including my mother are the mormons. Some even may surpass her a bit but don't count on it. Definitely on the same level though. I'm typing this outside where I can get some fresh air since the air inside is noxious and suffocating and not just because my mother and sister give me a ton of grief. They always try to put the blame on others including me but it's all them which is why as of now I officially disownn them and I'm out of here as soon as I can. I want to see nor hear a single thing about them and I WILL get a restraining order against all of them, including the whole mormon church if I can muster that, or at least my neighbors and their friends/family. I also hope and even pray they all burn in hell forever, including their damn church. I don't mean a fun hell either, more like the old testament kind that leaves them crispy around the edges. You know I feel a lot better outside. It's as if there isn't enough oxygen in that house. I'll have to remember that but my memory is pretty bad when I'm inside that house so I'll be sure to write it down, even on a piece of paper in case my netbook is hacked again. There's much to be said about camping and being in the outdoors truthfully. Man started out in the outdoors and leaving it is a bad idea. I could not stay only in a big city. I think maybe that's part of why there's crime and things like that. You do need nature and not just for hiking, camping and taking photos. This area is not exactly a national park but it's pretty close to the mountains and this area isn't close to any huge factories or anything like that. Anyway, I need sleep and food. That means going back into the den of adders or whatever that saying is. Fuck off mormons and your religion.