Eternity as a method

It's easier to forgive when you believe eternity is on your side. Otherwise, you become what you're trying to fight. It's not just religion but other groups from atheists to activists and gangs to revolutionaries. You need that peace of mind, otherwise it's like trying to do math while being whipped. The pain of incoming death is real. People need hope. That's really what faith is. It's just hope with a promise attached to it. People don't have to be perfect to be good. Judging others is a bit antisocial and takes hope away. The bible, in spite of being tampered with says we should visit prisons and administer/fellowship to cons. Why? They've feelings and have worth to God. So what about those outside of prison? If you look at it in a secular perspective they're victims of poverty, abuse, mental illness, crime. Yes, criminals, even gangs are much more likely to be victimized than the average person. There's constant danger. So, if you can't really judge a criminal, how much less can you judge a lawful person? Atheism did a number on me especially because of my TBI. So did additional TBI injuries, sleep deprivation, harassment and persecution, exposure to the elements, being contaminated by drug users with their drugs against my will, and so on. So I'm going to be conservative now. There's no joy or safety otherwise. There's no self-respect and dignity for me otherwise.

I am Trayvon Martin

I am Trayvon Martin..

The picture on the left was taken when I was 17 years old, had just graduated from high school, and really didn't know what I wanted to do with my life. Based on my appearance in this picture, you probably would have labeled me a thug or a trouble maker. I only graduated in the top 50% of my class and I took my ACT 4 times. A promising future in college doesn't look too well at this point does it?

But at age 17 (Trayvon's age when murdered), I didn't realize how much I would be judged and stereotyped for the clothes I wore and my physical appearance. Two months after that picture on the left was taken, I entered college and quickly realized that I wasn't pushing myself to be the best I can be. I hardly studied in high school but as as freshman in college I began to study daily. As a matter of fact, I did so well that I was able to participate in a summer medical internship at Yale University. I then went on to graduate from Prairie View A&M University Magna Cum Laude and in two weeks I will be attending Texas A&M Health Science College of Medicine to become a medical doctor.

The picture on the right is where I am now just four years later at the age of 21. The reason I am sharing this with you is because I COULD HAVE BEEN TRAYVON MARTIN!!! The defense team could have gone onto the internet and found pictures of me that were similar to Trayvon's pictures and characterized me as a thug. They would have then portrayed me as the aggressor and as a result it lead to my death. If that would have happened, then I would not have had the opportunity to reach my true calling, which is a medical doctor. My White Coat ceremony is in four days and it marks the next step in my journey. I could have been laying in a casket with a black suit, instead of of being in a white coat trying to save lives.

When I was 17, no one would have imagined that I would be doing so well and on my way to medical school. Who is to say that could not have happened to Trayvon Martin if he was still alive? He could have been the next doctor, lawyer, engineer, teacher, etc.

My prayers go out to his family and friends. 

Please share my story so people can be more conscious of their racial profiling. Everyone has the potential, as long as they are alive, to achieve greatness and make a positive impact on this world.

racism

I remember that even before I worked at Hill AFB, if I remember correctly, per the time,, some rednecks were threatening me in Walmart. Some Latinos stepped in because they called me racial slurs for being Latino. I don't know why the hicks wanted to beat on me other than I'm Latino and maybe for commenting online about rednecks in Utah and the racism here. Or maybe that photo I took in Heber City of a racist trinket. It's an ornament showing a black person eating watermelon with the word pikaneenie but with the correct spelling. Yup, this was on display at the gift shop at the Heber City railroad. I also read southern poverty law center. I grew up with nazis in my hometown of Oroville and was the target of other racists.Basically this started since I was a little child. My parents were even threatened before.

cops love tech

what do cops need per invention?

ceramic beads in vests? some particles that would quickly break up and divert a bullet or knife.

gas that turns gunmen holding hostages catatonic and does it quickly or doesn't register with them and before they know it they're stuck in place.

something that's the size of pepper spray but blinds like a flashing or directs a concussion at an attacker

knockout spray that works sorta like chloroform

for would be suicide a "happy" dart or spray that instantly makes them happy and non combative

a literal happy pill for inmates and parolees to keep them out of trouble

iron man type suits for swat

exoskeletons for some cops to help with arresting and chasing down

water bullets that retain form until impact. works sorta on principle of bubbles. use some kind of oil or nanotubes. non lethal - use magnetism

a radio gun that heats up a weapon in hand through walls so it's dropped

drive them out with swarm of fleas if they hole up somewhere

plasma trap - traps and stops bullets

shock trap - latches on - can be shot or thrown. stun guns them if they struggle. how to attach? like gaucho balls on rope even?

air cannon similar to toy at Clark planetarium but can knock you down or out.

remote controlled knock out grenades. balls that roll and turn direction and have camera and Mic

Hate against police

Is not logical. Gangster rap goes on about killing more gangs and minorities than any police agency ever has. Police save lives including those of criminals. Gangs and other criminals kill more gangs and criminals than police who shoot defensively 99% of the time. Police also have some rescue or first responder skills. If you're a criminal, police don't generally steal your significant other but cohorts and other criminals sometimes do. The same for your "business" or whatever you call your elicit income. It's not in your best interest to hate or shoot cops.

Anti-govs and anti-cops

It seems there's anti-government and anti-cop types that don't like the fact I worked as security assistant at Hill AFB and are quite the social engineers to boot. I'm still on top but they're prowling about. They don't always act themselves and I've seen ones I suspect of pretending to be gay or with voice imitating blacks and Latinos in speech manner thinking I'd not look and just twitter that some minority was threatening me. They're responsible for a bit of my brain damage too. Divide and conquer is their aim. I'm wishing I'd have kept that job. My boss, John Young was a great guy that tried to break me outta my shell and get me exercising and away from the computer especially when it comes to socializing. I'm not going to let that go to waste. Others at Hill too. I'm thankful I had people like them backing me up at work. If it weren't for shitty meds making me a bit irrational I'd have accepted that job permanently. I'd have to keep my CAC card and me safe but I could have done it with some help from law enforcement and military. I'm still that same person and people know that and pick on me accordingly. I won't give in so easily now as I'm stronger now. The USA is just fine. The "patriots" and #Iamthemob types set their sites on me even before my first job. They were on me like white on rice since I could walk and may include my own father. As a minority that's a half breed I'm a target by hate groups that see me as a symbol of interracial marriage and mating and that includes some Mormons and in my neighborhood to boot. I'm sure that some have connections in Mexico even. I won't let my guard down even there. They not only want to stop me from mating with a white woman but want to prevent me from succeeding in a career, friends, community and more. They don't even want me to vote for someone I prefer especially after I voted for Obama and he got elected. I'm going to vote for Obama again to teach them a lesson. Oh and I've noticed they hate Latin music of which I have a decent collection on my iPod touch. And I'm aware now that gays are racist too sometimes and it just fairly recently clicked even though I was experiencing it firsthand for years. Utah has some racist laws too and we've leaders here that worked under Nixon who turns out to be a racist willing to help abort interracial babies. I'm in danger every day even where I live from rednecks and other extremists. I find it hard to trust any white civilian in this state mostly since I keep running into extreme types. You know I'm going to get dual citizenship with Mexico just to show them I'll do what I want. And I'm buying more Latin music and books and more. I'll also support Latinos in my community and in the country and in Mexico and Latin America and the world. I've already been supporting uncle Sam. ha!

Coffee and the nature of meds

I've discovered that sun and chocolate covered expresso beans mix well with me. Maybe it's true about us Latinos needing sun or we get "schizo." It sure helps my happiness when I'm in the sun or had sun. I truly get the winter blues. No sun, no fun, and no caffeine with my TBI make me sarcastic. Granted I can get pretty accurate and think "outside the box" but at what cost? Perhaps some change I outline is too much too soon and I don't want to leave anyone behind socially or economically. Not only should people succeed they should be happy doing it. Paag and SDS serve a purpose. They aren't perfect programs but this country is also a work in progress as is humanity. Perhaps criticism isn't needed but blueprints. The intent when saying what needs to be fixed should technically be for the benefit of those doing it wrong as well as those needing it done right. We're all human and in need and cooperation is the key to happiness as well as survival. So, I'm siding with everyone. We're all sentient beings here after all and even the not so sentient ones have feelings and maybe are even more sensitive due to lack of faculties. Remember that bacteria have no brain or central nervous system but can plan ahead three steps in a colony so what of other living creatures? Best wishes.