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Logic and Emotion

I thought I'd write a quick something on logic vs emotion. There is no versus! They should go hand in hand really. You can never escape your emotional side and you don't need to. It's what makes us compassionate, loving, loyal, honest, and everything else good. You know how they say without ethics science is as bad as religion? Well, ethics are emotional no? I mean, even if we say we do it for this and that logical reason, we wouldn't care a damn square inch if there were no emotion involved. Anyone that says otherwise is blowing smoke up your ass. And, even a scientist cries, a soldier obviously cries, Buddhist monks cry, they break, they make mistakes. Perfect takes practice but do you really want to waste this life practicing for ultra-perfection instead of enjoying what you already have, which is more than adequate? I mean, look at the psychology studies. Bad behavior is learned, it's not innate! You would seriously have to have monster genes to be born that way. I'd say that more than 99.999% of the population is born decent. You don't think things would be a lot worse if people were "natural born killers?" Even hunters, I've read, heard from, and seen in movies, talk about crying after killing their first deer. I have cowboys on one side of the family, and lived in an area full of them as a kid, and still do. Ever hear cowboy poetry? It's not just Dixie Chicks that sing/spin beauty. Cowboy poetry is quite nice actually. Not all cowboys are "injun killers" and I know that. Do you think I'd watch the Lone Ranger, the original Black and White version, dress like a freakin cowboy if I pretty much weren't one myself? I mean, ok, I don't hunt, I don't shoot anything other than my mouth, I don't own a truck but you know, it's like your beliefs, even religion or politics, it's not where you are but who you are. And that's not to say I don't have Latino and European either. Where do cowboys come from? Europe? You don't say!! And I know, especially from living in Mexico and being among family, not all latinos/natives/blacks/asians/etc are all good just like they're not all bad. Does it look like paradise in other countries? Not really. I've been to two foreign countries, one on the other side of the pond, and Mexico as well. I remember Mexico rather well, and you know, things can be pretty damn rough there. I've been pistol whipped with a submachine gun after accidentally walking in on a drug bust by police. My cousin saved me, saying "No no es americano" cuz I was ready to start shit. I mean, come on, I walked around the corner and big ass poncho gives me the butt of his submachine gun. Dude, I think you guys could use some training. Granted, he stopped when my cousin said Americano, but man, ever heard of blocking off the street? But you know, others are really nice there so don't take that wrong. But really, cops there are in a pinch. If you're not corrupt, you're dead. They're fighting back now, and my thoughts are with them, I hope they win against the cartels. I've read and heard what happens to good cops. If you find them in one piece, they tortured them instead of dismembering them before they killed them. Yeah, but anyhow, another subject. Oh yes, back to the benefits of emotion. I stopped reading psychology today. I wasn't going to become a shrink, not after what I've seen and read, and after dating gals that wanted to psycho-analyze you on dates. Yeah, maybe you were trying to look smart, cuz I like smart gals, but see, that's what that sort of major does to you I guess. I dunno, but it happened multiple times. If it happened once or twice, ok, two gals that are a pain, but multiple times? I see a pattern here. Oh, and I read online, a psychologist that was pretty decent doing research. He studied and observed staff and patients and noted, and he joked about it but he said he was also serious. The patients got better faster than the staff. I wish I still had the bookmark. Oh, and I still have access to my Medscape.com account, thank goodness! I've forgotten a lot of Latin, pretty much all of it though I recognize it when I hear it, mostly. But anyhow, Latin does help a little in recognizing some medical terms, though I'm not sure if they've changed that by now. Haven't kept up, and sort of have other interests at this time, nature, photography etc. But I do like biology and there are aspects about medical, namely keeping our asses alive that are pretty beneficial. But yeah, Psychology Today, I think I threw away all my subscriptions, said that love is a chemical imbalance. Excuse me? Ok, that's so damn unromantic I just stopped reading it. I can't remember if I called and said stop my subscription, I don't really care about a refund, but really, that's pathetic. So, a mother bird that fakes being hurt to protect her young. That's a chemical imbalance? Oh animals don't feel? Scientists recently discovered that bacteria can think three steps ahead in colonies, and your cat, dog, or a bird can't feel? They aren't sad when their young dies, or their owners die? Hello? Is your brain on? Well, maybe it's your heart that quit working, not sure, but really, I'm no animal rights activist by far, but animals are cute, and have feelings, and even the not cute ones have feelings. Seriously, I've wanted scorpions, tarantulas etc for pets. I've had preying mantises, bees, wasps, jumping spiders, roaches, and other evil looking creatures, by some people's terms, for pets. Hey, I'm not gonna eat your kids, relax, but don't judge a book by it's cover is pretty much accurate. I'm not saying go kiss a gila monster, but you know, common sense goes a long way. But as I was saying (man I veer just like my college professors, and admittedly I enjoyed it their speals on their experiences), but yes, psychology, I dunno. I saw some potential but a ton of it is hogwash. Read Toxic Psychiatry by Peter Breggin , it pretty much explains what should be common sense, and remember, bad habits are learned, not innate. In psych 101 I learned that psychologists will do research outside the bounds of the law, and some have been arrested. Experiments they did in the past would be illegal today, and that was in the 1990s, that quote anyhow. So, I dunno but I don't like experimintation. Really. Aren't you born knowing what you need to know when it comes to emotions and whatnot? Really. Self help books? You don't need them unless you're screwed up enough to where you can't comprehend what's in them in the first place, meaning, you can't really understand much else in print either, or in a lecture of video/DVD. I mean, at that point you might as well move to Montana and sit on your porch smoking a pipe in your rocker. BTW, here are the product details on the book Toxic Psychiatry:

Product Details

• Paperback: 480 pages
• Publisher: St. Martin's Griffin; 1 edition (August 15, 1994)
• Language: English
• ISBN-10: 0312113668
• ISBN-13: 978-0312113667

He's written other books, in fact, these pharmecutical drugs do cause people to act up. I've seen it. People taking the happy pills aren't happy at all. Many of them turn violent, more "crazy" than they were originally, etc. It's in his other books and I've seen it. Oh, by the way, do shrinks ever talk about the numerous rapes that happen in psych wards every year? I'm serious. Now they wouldn't do that, they're professionals. Oh, kind of like soldiers, bad cops, bad lawyers, bad doctors, bad teachers etc. Reminds me of that Dokken song, Down in Flames - I think that's the one, one part says "trust me, everything is fine, trust me everything is fine." Riiiiight! And if you go and babble about "well they're not all like that!" Uhh reading comprehension? Did you steal the short bus my friend? Take a look at these links:

http://www.google.com/search?q=large+amount+of+rapes+in+psychiatric+wards&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&aq=t

http://www.channel4.com/news/articles/dispatches/psychiatric+inpatient+wards++places+of+healing+or+torment/158085

And you wonder why "crazy" people never get better? Think of what I learned in criminal justice 101, they used to mix the car thieves, the murderers and the rapists. Probably still do. The car thieves, petty criminals would come out psychotic because being ass raped and threatened with your life repeatedly does that to a person. Violence alone is traumatizing, let alone rape. Take a look at our soldiers in Iraq.

Again, let me re-iterate I've not only dated kooky psych gals but have been "befriended" by kooky psych major guys. Some of the mormon, so umm yeah, let me do the math. And I know, dummy, before you comment, that not all mormons do that, and other, non-religious or other religions do that also. Give it a rest will ya? I'm saying that from past experience. Online debates are nothing but unhappy little psycho-monkies that don't want to debate, or exchange information, they want to verbally and emotionally abuse you from behind a computer screen, and don't give them your info, cuz they will pester you in person too. That's common knowledge/sense too.

Ok, so apart from sloppy writing, and jumping all over the grid when it comes to subject matter, my point is that emotions, the ones we were born with, are good. We got this far with what nature gave us, we don't need to try to be Mr. Spocks and turn into Jeffrey Dahmers. Really. I don't like to cook that much. I've been cooking since I was a kid, I'd forget from lack of practice and try to take it up time and again throughout my life. I didn't just cook eggs either. I know how to read recipes, I knew the difference between a tablespoon and teaspoon since before I went to kindergarten. I've held measuring cups since before them and took part in the cooking. I know food is better for you generally, and tastes better with ingredients you put together, since I was maybe 4 or 5. This tv dinner, spaghettio crap, it's gross. It's like eating mostly fake food, contaminated with aluminum and who knows what else, and of course it tastes that bad. I mean, man, it's disgusting. The food is of better quality at McDonald's and that's not that great for you either, but not nearly that bad. Even eating McD's once a day shouldn't kill you. But anyhow, yeah, I write a lot, am super tired, pretty thirsty and hungry, so it's time I found some food, got me a drink of water or juice or something, and got to bed. But I want to re-iterate that emotions, just like the character James T Kirk from Star Trek said, are what makes humans strong, and what makes us good. You ever read those news stories about mall shootings etc. "He was so emotionaless, he had a blank look in his eyes as if there was nothing there." Ding ding! We have a winner! Emotion is not bad. I didn't get the emo thing entirely, I finally just went along, but we're all EMO unless you're a freakin psycho. Think about it in the right context too. I mean, some of the responses I've gotten from people showed it was obvious they can't think for themselves or just like to be major assholes. And you know, when you act like an asshole, you're not really thinking for yourself are you? Think about it real deep, get back to me when you're NOT an asshole ok?

Marriage And Wedding Rings

Is marriage a fine institution you're not crazy enough to be committed to? Do you think of wedding rings as the world's smallest handcuffs? Does food enter your mind when someone talks about marriage? You know, as in marriage is like a cafeteria, you look over the selections carefully, pick what you like best, and pay later. Well, join the club but not if you're just a cynic, or hate women/men, and not because I'm judgmental but because I don't like negativity. You see, love is a precious wonderful thing. There's too little of it in this world, at least in my world. It might have to do with me living on planet utardia, but I'm a sensitive guy in spite of what you might think, or the fact I shoot my mouth off more than militias shoot Obama posters in the woods. I don't want to get divorced. I'm not a possessive, pessimistic, control freak that just can't let go. I always let go, even if I don't forget. In utah especially, I see a really high divorce rate, and it's all over. Is marriage just a receipt? It seemed like a contract but you know, I've signed one too many contracts and quite frankly was never satisfied with the results. I truly want love to be forever, and I may not act like it sometimes, I may not talk like it sometimes, but I believe with faith in yourself and your partner, love is all you need. Don't take that literally, love won't get you a job, or pay your bills, or do your math homework. But, love will make a marriage last forever. You have to think outside the box perhaps to know what I mean. You see, yeah, people divorce when married. You don't have to be a genius to know the leading cause of divorce is marriage. Do people divorce without it? Seriously though, if it takes a piece of paper and an expensive ring, a $20,000 wedding to prove you love each other for two or three years, hell, I'll go to Reno, Nevada and get more emotional fulfilment from a prostitute (not a put down either) for oh I dunno what the rate is. I heard around $1000? Lots of money saved, doesn't last as long, but doesn't cost as much heartache or money in the end. That's just a silly comparison but you know, I knew a hippy gal, she had a boyfriend, kids, would never marry because her friends around her divorced more than movie stars, and they were happy last I heard. Well, even if they aren't, is marriage working? I doubt they had to worry about a horrid divorce even if they split up. Besides, you don't need a "certificate" to remind you to love your wife and kids, be responsible, not cheat on her, not become an alcoholic prick that only watches sports and hangs out with his friends at bars while your wife is at home wondering why the hell she married such an asshole. In fact, pretty much everyone, even yes men, tend to want to do the opposite of what you tell them. Think about it. If I came up to people in, say, a bookstore, and told them hey, buy that book over there! Well, they'd probably buy the book they were buying anyhow, with buying your book even furthest from their mind. So, what does a certificate do? Nothing, but for some, if you tell them to buy a book they already were going to buy enough times, or in a certain fashion, they won't buy it. That's also what a marriage certificate ends up doing. Of course not everyone goes through that, and there are absolutely no absolutes as they say. I COULD be talked into marriage in fact, love is more than an aphrodesiac, it's a spring of happiness. I am just saying that it scares me and not because I am irresponsible or unromantic but quite the opposite. I mean, I'm not one to tie cause-effect badly to the point I wear a tin-foil hat every time something seems out of place, but you know, as much as I don't want to get hurt, just like love, divorce is a two way street. There's much involved with a divorce. You either suffer because you realize, yeah, it's YOUR damn fault for the divorce, or if it's both your faults, but you hurt too much to work it out, that's really sad and not in a mocking way. It's truly heartbreaking. Oh, and if by some stroke of bad luck she weirds out on me and acts like a mancake, well, now that's really hurtful too. I don't see that happening even though I see it happening to other guys. I'm a bit different than those guys in an odd way. Just by nature, I'm a pain to the point she'd have to be a bit patient and really in love with me to marry me, and I am a bit more pleasant with beer and sex, but still a bit of a pain. I mean, gals either dumped me, made life rough for me, or whatnot because they weren't the right ones I suppose. Well, I suppose by now you're wondering when I'm going to muse about nature photography and whatnot. I'll get to that. I haven't been able to find work, bored, frustrated, sober, and having caffeine withdrawels. I'd club a baby harbor seal if blood didn't make me feel sick to my stomach. I hope you know I'm kidding. If you start crying you should stop watching movies about the arctic.

Well, anyhow, marriage isn't exactly an obsession but living in utah you can't avoid thinking about that anytime a female mentions relationships, flirts with you, texts you about sex, or has a conversation with you in IM, on the phone or whatever about relationships, sex, marriage, or anything that relates to it which it almost all does in one form or another, including politics and religion. Now you know why I like nature photography. It's not because I hate people either, but it's relaxing, like nature's symphony. No, I don't want to move to Montana, but I'd like to live near nature and near enough to a city so I can easily shop, get my car fixed or whatever. I'd to be near beer also. I don't have time to brew my own, and if it's 7-11 beer so be it. That's something. I even like Bud Lime, it's not bad really. I've had better beer, but hell, it's like eating Pizza Hut and then New York and swearing off Pizza Hut. I mean, ok, that's cool but is it necessary? Well, ok if you're in NY that's fine, but if your car breaks down in some podunk town are you going to avoid Pizza Hut because you swore it off? I dunno, maybe if you need money for repairs but hell, pizza is like sex. Even bad pizza is better than no sex. That's another thing though. It's hard for me to sleep around. I get attached, but I'm not needy. I'm not so overly romantic that if a gal is pretty experienced I think she's a slut. Hump who the hell you want, I don't care. I don't marry for mileage, I marry for love. If you want a virgin these days, good luck! Even most junior high and high school gals aren't virgins. I'm not even going to bother with them if they were. College? Same thing, and also adulthood. And if she's a virgin and not by choice and not by bad luck and she doesn't live where 99% of the guys are dirtbags, that's probably a good sign you shouldn't sleep with her either. It depends and I'm not trying to be mean but if she's super mean, a killer, eats bugs and lives in a treehouse in a public park, I don't think she's my type. Even if she's pretty darn cute, that kinda puts me off a little. Yeah, I've been told to "lower my standards" but they aren't standards defined by some rule book. I'm attracted to certain aspects initially and then chance, life, actions, me, the ambient light and temperature of the atmosphere, I dunno, shit happens. To me, when you fall in love it's not something you can pinpoint. The closest you'll come to pinpointing it, is something like hmm I could spend the rest of my life with this person. Oh, and you care more about their needs than your own. I don't mean you have to wait on them hand and foot, not at all. Love promotes dignity. It's love when they bring out the best in you, not the maid in you, or the wimpy nice guy. I mean, you know, you don't have to be casanova or miss universe with poise and beauty around this person 100% of the time, but they can't bring you down, you know? I'm pretty sure if I move closer to the ocean I'll find her. Something about the ocean is pretty cool, it's hard to explain. I've been to the ocean, and even if you just get that idea from seeing the ocean in a movie. So what? You get ideas from books right? So, if you learn that 4+4 = 8, and it comes from a book, does that make it wrong? Exactly. Some things in movies/media/books is fine, and other stuff is not, just like anywhere else like politics, life, work, and especially church. But you know, love should still be there even when you're not at your best. The marriage part that is right is for better or for worse but that's the visual thing, you wanna think positive. I have had that told to me enough times, by man and woman, when they were going through divorce, and not just parents, but friends too. I have faith, but I'm cautious and I worry about my future partner, where ever she may be. I know I'm not perfect. I'm not the ideal guy but I'm not bad either. I'm not crummy by far. I do have some pretty bad luck sometimes but I get through it. I'm not gonna slap my woman around, I'm not going to cheat, I'm not going to be a chauvinist, I've had people try to shove that down my throat and no thanks. And you know one good thing I learned in psych 101 is that we're born with a clean slate so to speak, this kind of behavior is learned, and the fact I didn't latch on to that crap is a sign I'm not such a bad guy. Maybe a bit of an smart ass, sometimes an asshole but not to the extreme, and those are by my definition, not what you typically hear used in every day practice.

I have to say I'm a bit nervous, I have friends I like, women I've cut off ties with cuz they were, hmm a pain? Some maybe a bit crazy? I've a couple of friends that want to, hmm hang out, and I'm willing, able but worried. They're good friends, but I get attached. I know it won't be a one night stand. I know what the onset of one looks like. It involves not alcohol but two people saying, hey, got hormones? We should swap stories/spit whatever. Alcohol makes it less likely sometimes, depends, that you'll have a successful one nighter. I must have been with really drunk gals but I've only been laid sober. Get them drunk, and it goes all over. Really. Either I hear about their ex's or they pass out or they get combative and I say, ok I"ll go, and then "where the F**k do you think you're going?" Yeah, but not all gals are like that. Alcohol affects people differently. Me, I chill out. Get mellow and relax. My grandpa was the same in Mexico. I heard stories where the daughters would only ask for money when he was drinking cuz he was more generous. I'm not generous but I relax with a drink or two. I don't really enjoy being drunk that much, especially with women around. I don't feel romantic, I just laugh and act like an ass, and even if I got laid I won't remember it. The closest to getting laid was walking with friends, guys and girls, in Cali, blasted out of my mind, not sure how I remember, I had to pee, couldn't wait so I say "wait here guys" and run up to a light pole and just pee... The gals said "oh dear Joey we've never seen this side of you before" and they're laughing.. the guys are laughing too but I can't remember what they said. I never got laid in high school. Alcohol makes no difference. I never got laid when sober. I've done crazier things sober actually than when I was drunk. I've actually done things that would kill some people, and not because I wanted to die, but for example, as kids we idolized evil kennevil. Yeah, so combine that with a tall levee, a mountain bike and a dumb kid without a helmet and I dunno how I lived. I've done lots of stuff like that since a kid, and I never drank until umm around 15 or 16. Didn't even try cigarettes until ummm around 17 or so and I hated it. I may have tried one or two puffs at around 4 but I don't think so. I remember being offered and I was all, uhhh no, that's kind of bad for you. I should get some sleep. I'll try and write about nature photography tomorrow. Scouts honor! lol

Post about wiretapping by NSA/FBI/CIA

Ok, I've even argued this point with family members. People go pretty apeshit about the Feds watching the Internet. Think back to the 1700s, Paul Revere? The British are coming? History of course, the British invasion now consists of Def Leppard, The Beatles etc. Now, the Internet is born, originally created by DARPA and around 3 universities, one of them being University of Utah in the state I currently reside. Present day, more modern, more dangerous, and more useful. A form of information, disinformation, entertainment, porn, danger of all kinds, and even education, job hunting, work, and dating/befriending. Well, I see the Internet as this. Remember that young kid sci fi book, A Wrinkle in Time? The Internet is a portal, or an ocean...people leave their systems on 24/7 sometimes, and with broadband end up in botnets, hacked, ID Theft etc. It's not just money and your credit history but wars rage as we speak. We "surf the net" because it's an ocean of danger and information and enjoyment too. So, now our Feds are being Paul Revere, but the attacks come from all sides. I haven't checked in quite some time, but the FBI alone received, a couple years back or so, 20,000 Cybercrime complaints per MONTH. Do you want a digital pearl harbor, or 9/11? Even our frienemies, Russia and China, installed sleeper worms/virii in our power grid which we are still weeding out, in case we ever start trouble with them in a warlike manner. Recently, a few years back, some IT guys thought they'd save the Feds a few dollars by buying some Cisco routers on Ebay. Turns out they were Chinese counterfeits with backdoors sending info (allegedly) to the Chinese. You know where they were installed? The Pentagon, and every military branch. I suggest buying a copy of Spies Among Us by Ira Winkler, a former NSA IT Security guy. It basically says that everyone and their dog attacks the USA, everyone. Except Israel because we're their only backup. The funny thing about the USA/Feds, is if they do nothing, people bitch and moan and say, why don't you do something. Aren't you our government? But then they do stuff, and then people bitch and moan and say "what the hell are you doing? Aren't you our government?" That, my friends, is a catch 22, but they still serve us, because they ARE us. Even congress isn't grown in a lab somewhere to rule over us peasants. Do you see much precision in our government? Exactly! Do you see much precision in society? Ok, I've made my point when it comes to that. I mean, yes, stay involved, whine a bit but don't go arming yourselves and making tin foil hats and thinking Obama is not a citizen or the anti-christ. Really. Don't you still have your guns? Not that they' d do any good against a huge military, robots, nano-tech, ginourmous bombs, not counting enough nukes to blow up the earth 100 times, and then there's our allies. Yup, we do have allies that would land on our soil and bring out a can of whoop ass that would make WW2 look like a skeet shoot. If you think that's glorious, maybe you should stop smoking whatever drugs you're smoking. If you're completely sober, maybe you should grab a toke and sit back and reflect a little. But, anyhow, the Internet, even if your computer is off and disconnected, is on 24/7 and is most likely the only network in the entire world that has 100% uptime, or at least the near 99.999% uptime companies claim to have. I don't like being spied on, but you know, the Feds are trained, even when they didn't answer to someone for a while, oh lookie, the CIA got in trouble. The great huge big CIA answers to the people. Seems like an ok system even if it isn't perfect. I'm not perfect but you know, I hope nobody blows me up, at least not unless I'm dying anyhow, around 89 years old, and the world is about to explode anyhow. Go out with a bang, I say. But yeah, there's also worse than spies online. Pedos stalk family photos online, use internet tools you haven't dreamed of to find your kids, and bingo, they're a statistic, then there's criminals, cults, serial killers/rapists, and god knows what else is online waiting to take a bite out of your arse while the Feds are trying to take a bite out of theirs. You know, if the government were so bad, you'd have the gistapo kicking down your door the minute you posted "OMG, the Feds suck, I hate taxes and Obama is a commie liberal!" Well, he has better things to do like help this country.

But back to the security of the net. You know how many botnets there are in the world? There's millions if not more. Oh but they can't crack my encryption! Really? Ever hear about distributed computing? SETI@Home is one of the latest encarnations. The first, I can't remember the name, was used to crack encryption. Don't tell me hackers/crackers aren't using that on their own when that's the first use of distributed computing in the first place! It'd take a mainframe 1000 years to crack that 128bit cipher? I bet 20 million infected computers could do it in a month or two, who knows! You know, computer security books all say, the only secure computer is the one you block up in cement and drop in the ocean, and someone will find it eventually. Still not taking this down but it may have already been tampered with.